Many things happened during that times, but let's just focus on the current situation first. I'll share the glimpse of what happened here and there anyway. So, the point is:
Tueteep..NGANGGUR, boo..!!
Ini kerjaan gue yg baru, after gw resign dr kerjaan gw yg sebelumnya, which I had during my graduation day. I worked before at hotel, but then things come up..long stories actually..and then I ended up having this new job at some not really lousy company actually. It's a small company, but there are even a bigger reason, good one, of why I choose this job.
By this far, keliatannya ini bukan pilihan yg salah. I mean, mo nyari dimana lg kerjaan yg gw bs masuk siang keq gini. Yah, bukan siang hari dalam pengertian jam 12 siang bolong yah..tp dengan jam masuk 10 pagi, I think it bring a whole lot of effect. Yg pst for this past few days (yes, I just got in to this job few days ago) gue gk bangun pagi dengan bad mood gr2 kurang tidur, gk pake grasa-grusu jg di pagi hari krn ngejar waktu spy gk telat masuk kantor (demi supaya gk dapet surat teguran karena telat, shit!).
Gk harus ngantri berpuluh-puluh menit juga di halte busway yang pastinya penuh suesaaak di jam masuk kantor, which make me ended up feeling even more miserable and tired than ever. Apalagi klo ngebayangin di sore harinya, again..gue kudu grasa-grusu lagi demi supaya ngejar waktu ke kampus. Yes, a part of my long stories is that now I'm enrolling for Master degree..ehm, in Communication. Woooaaaa, right? Never past in my mind, I just sometime still amazed (and being thankful at the same time) with this fact.
But still, this "greater goodness" cost me more time & energy to spend. So, instead of thinking about where to hang out, gue lbh fokus buat mikir, "When will I get time to do the task?" Or even worse, "When the hell I'll get time to rest" Or it could turn out even worst, "For fuck's sake, I need a break!!"
That's why, in the end of the day..I ended up praying so that I could set myself free from all of this bourdon. And you know? It's like the Genie in those movies, "Your wish, is my command" and yet..it's being fulfilled. One week later, I get the "announcement" from my God damn bitchy boss who actually used up her freakin' valuable time to tell me the "bad news".
Well, of course it doesn't come out as totally bad, knowing that part of it, is something that I wish for: I get the resignation penalty, which do me a lot of fortune to pay the college tuition. And the most funny thing, is that I got my "break-time" in a big way. It took me another 6 months, before I finally land on the new job. Yes, 6 bulan free, boo..! Bener-bener kebayar tuh, walaupun di sisi lain gw jg sempet resah krn cemas belom dpt kerjaan.
But here I am, typing this story in front of the laptop (that serves as my desktop PC, due to the "emergency" situation), in my own desk, doing nothing because I don't (yet) have the task to do. Secara bos gue lg pameran, dan sebagian besar staff juga entah ngilang kemana (ke luar kota, based on my colleague information), jd gue bener2 jobless for this time being. But hey, that's why I got time to type all of these..so, it's good.
Gue jg prefer untuk gk ambil pusing, about my future in this company..coz, I can't imagine how is it going to be, me being with this company. Yg penting gue ada kerjaan, gk nganggur, ada duit masuk tiap bulan, esp. buat bayar kuliah..abis itu, yah liat kemana arah yg bs dituju. B'coz one thing that simply being taught to me during those 6 months of break-time, is that life could somehow become beyond expectation.
For now, kerjaan ini terus terang not yet becoming a pain in the ass for my college, so it is good. Mudah2an sih bs sejalan, sampe nanti gue deket2 mo lulus..hehe.. Tp jgn kebanyakan nganggur keq gini juga, feeling guilty boo...! Klo gw gk banyak guna'na buat company, yg ada kan gk lama gw di-pecat yah, secara kerja gw cm ngabisin listrik, air, tinta printer (demi buat ngprint tugas kampus, haha..), and duit buat bayar gaji gue tiap bulan'na.. So, horeee for now, may I'll get on with it.
Now, musti ngapain yah supaya gk keliatan nganggur banget? Ngerti kyk gini sih okeh sebenernya, keliatan kyk lg sibuk ngerjain sumthing (padahal lg ngemeng di blog, haha..) Td jg ud browsing sana-sini, ampe mata gue suntur. Kerjaan yg kemarin2 dikasih, ud rampung gw kerjain tinggal nunggu approval. Kerjaan kampus gue malah ikut2an bablas gw hajar saking gk da kerjaan. Mau nonton video, koq kesannya paraaaah bgt yah??! Mau baca buku, sayangnya gw lg gk baca buku..padahal klo baca buku kan bisa keliatan sibuk juga (secara kepalanya nunduk gitu, kyk lg kerja..haha..padahal matanya doank yg kerja baca tulisan).
Oh iy, gw jg lg kepikiran buat nerusin..ehm, lebih tepatnya memulai (soalnya kykna gue blom pernah bener-bener start serius gt d) program penambahan berat badan gue. Secara semenjak gue kerja n kul, berat badan gue menurun drastis. And I was thinking that it's about time to take it on to next level, masa sih gk bs nambah beberapa kilo aj. Syarat utama: tidur cukup, makan banyak, gk banyak pikiran, hehe..
Yg paling susah pastinya poin ke-3 lah yah, which become my biggest consideration. Td pagi, during my trip to the office, I've contemplated with my self (sempet yah? sempet laah, klo berangkatnya nyantai gk dikejar setan). Gue ngebandingin masa-masa blom dpt kerjaan, sm skrg waktu gue ud kerja. Ternyata senengnya dapet kerjaan itu cm sebentar yah? Udahan'na gue mulai deh cemas sama ini itu. Penyebab utamanya? Yah my own expectation sih. I began to create the image of my ideal future with this company, how it should or could turn out to be, and then I began to worried, I have fear toward the future. Worried that things might go not so well. But u know what? Things will go unwell, that's for sure. You just don't know when, or how, but it will. But, it doesn't matter..once I look up upon my biggest, my greater purpose. And reflecting my own life, one can just pray that no matter how much turn around being made, that somehow those turns will lead to the destination. Jd, kenapa takut? Ehm, mungkin lebih tepatnya..kenapa dipikirin? Hehe..
NB: barusan gw ke belakang buat refill air, ngelewatin staff lain dr divisi sales yg ternyata..jg gk kalah nganggur. Secara dia Youtube'an boo..!! Haha..tnyata gk cm gw sndiri aj, hihi.. Officially slacking off..!!
