Two Types of Guy

I know i suppose to go to sleep, since i've been forced myself today for nothing (spent 8 hours inside the Studio, and not even one draw??) Yes, i'm exhausted...esp. my mind, but maybe by writing sumthing stupid...out of the fucking concept, i might find peace, hehe..
Anyway, yg pgn gw ceritain kali ini, itu tentang cowok (again??) Yah, kykna blog ini emang isinya gk jauh-jauh dr sana. Habiiiis, mo gmn lg dunk? Gk mgkn curhat sm nyokap kan? Bs diusir gw, haha.. Curhat ke temen, musti ati-ati, jadinya ribet, so better write in here aza..
Balik ke topik, 2-3 hr ini gw lg keranjingan sm cowok2 Korea. Well, emang siy dsini lg pada demam Korea, mulai dr DBSK, SuJu, BBF, dan kawan2 sebangsanya. Yah, sebagian emang cakep siy, but u know me laar... Selera gw kan cowoq2 yg Nordic gt, so klo br level Asia mah gw cuek2 aj. Bukan b'arti gk da yg cakep, tp menurut pendapat pribadi gw...cowoq Asia itu tampan'na ada 2 tipe. Yg pertama karena style (this include hair, dress, style, dll. Gk percaya? Cb aj suruh personil DBSK botakin rambut. Paling2 cm 1-2 org yg ms keliatan tampan..) dan tipe yg kedua adalah yg emang bener2 cakep. Cm sayangnya, cowok2 tipe yg ke-2 ini jarang gw temui. Klopun ada, rata2 yg cakep'na aluus, alias manis n sweet kyk gue gt, hihihi.. Males lar gw klo sama yg setipe mah >_<
Tp entah karena gw emang horny, ato lg stress ngadepin gambar TGA, bberapa hari t'akhir ini gw lg kebayang2 muka personil BBF yg namanya...bentar, agak2 ribet niy, klo gk salah: Kim Joon y? Namanya rada2 mirip gt, bingung gw..
But then, belakangan gw sadar klo tnyata di dunia ini gw membagi cowok dalam 2 kubu, yakni: "Cwoq ganteng yg bikin horny", dan kubu yg satu lagi adalah "cowok ganteng yg bikin adem" Maybe it's more simple if i put those in English, like "Hot Guy" and "Nice Guy". The Hot Guy is the type of man I want to ended up in bed, being fucked in my wildest naughty bitchy dream (hihihi...^^), once being fucked, I'll get bored, then leave them without a trace. While the other type, the "Nice Guy" is the type that I want to spend my time with, hang-out, being out to other with, and sumtimes...doesn't make me feel horny all the time.
Nah low, klo gt bs ditarik kesimpulan dunk, bahwa Love and Sex is not the same? Buktinya, gw bs tuw suka ma cowoq, tanpa ada rasa horny...beberapa cowoq, coz mostly i juz feel horny when i liked one, khe..khe..khe.. Tp intinya, gw cm mo bilang klo cinta tuw gk sama dengan sex. Jadi, klo ada yg menyamaratakan sex dengan cinta, mending suru dia ML ama lobang kunci aj. Nah, loow...lecet-lecet deh tuw!
The bottom line is, I'm glad that i can sees and feels the different between falling in love, with falling with love. Maksudnya gini, klo nantinya gw mo cr BF...i already know, that i need to find the "nice guy" not the "hot guy". I'm going to fins someone that could makes me feel secure, instead of make me warm in bed, although i won't say no if i can have both (I mean both type in ONE man, pleease...i'm not a whore u know!)
To end this writing (coz i am feeling better rite now^^), let's get back to my story. Tentang si Kim Joon yg ud bikin gw horny selama 3 hari, baru tadi gw sempet mikir: "If Kim Joon is my "Hot Guy", then whose gonna be my "Nice Guy" There's gotta be someone, rite? In oder to prove my theory about 2 types of man..."
And then i remembered him, the man from long time ago, but still i like him until now. I've found how he looks like this recently in Youtube, but i'm gonna put only some of his pics.

Juz a lil' fact about him, niy cowok umurnya ud mature denk (31, can u imagine? Pasti ud pengalaman bgt di ranjang, maen'na pasti gentle bgt...aaargh, gk nahan!! Heeeeh, mulai deh pelacuran'na keluar *_*), tapi entah knp makin tua jd makin cakep aja (mudah2an gw bs kyk gt, amieen!). Emang siy jd tambah kurus, mungkin krn gk da yg ngurusin (he divorced), klo gt gw aja d yg ngurusin (aiih, maunya deh loooee!). Mudah2an siy bkn krn sakit ato ngobat yah? Ato mungkin operasi? Hehe, klo yg t'akhir gw no comment deh^^

Btw, his name is Takashi Kashiwabara (nice name rite!) Juz to remind me, that i might easily fall in love with a guy (Hey, I'm Libra btw, spare me pliz...), but in the end i always ended up with the right guy.

No fun. no Sex. Have piC. serious Only

Pertama kali gw ngeliat Headline itu, letaknya ada di profile someone @Manjam. Yg pertama kali terlintas di pikiran gw by the time i read the text was, "Woaa, it's so powerful.." Yup, it did sounds like what i prefer from a guy (cuma perlu tambahan "tampan, tinggi, and educated"), hehe... But the message is so powerful...straight to the point gt.
Tadinya gw ud napsu pgn copy itu text pas di profile gw (sebodo deh mo plagiat), tp belom sempet gw online...gw jd mikir2. Udahannya gw pun jadi malu, hikz... Bukan'na apa, dipikir2 lagi walaupun sebenernya kualitas semacam itulah yg gw cr dr seorang lelaki (plus tambahan yg td ud gw sebut), tapi jujur aj gw lom berani setegas itu. Istilahnya klo ada cowoq yg memenuhi hampir semua kriteria di-atas, but he still want the sex...i think i still want to know him better. Nah..tergoda kan loe?
Maknya gw bilang, gw jd malu...malu karena ternyata gw lemah hati, malu krn ternyata gw gk bs stegas org lain, malu jg karena ternyata gw blom bs menunjukkan kualitas seorang lelaki imut manis sejati. I'm still out of the club, i guess...hikz..
Coz, if u really adore ur'self...pastinya u gk akan ragu2 lar. Klo u yakin sm kualitas diri u sendiri, pastinya u jg gk ragu buat ng-set kualitas calon pasangan u setinggi langit. Dan kualitas itu pastinya termasuk dalam hal urusan badaniah, coz u juz want the relationship, rite?
Nah, skrg perut gw jd mules lagi krn kebanyakn mikir..hihihi...
Intinya, hmm...kykna gw kudu berbenah lagi denk. Really need to set a high standar, coz gk ada gunanya jg to lower your standart, coz it means u'll get sumone lower than ur expectation, rite?
Skrg ini gw lg deket sm 1 cowoq...lets juz call him Leon. Nah, si Leon ini menurut gw ud hampir memenuhi standar lah. Gk jelek (walau gk tampan sekali), proporsional, ud lulus n ud kerja pula, well behave and good manner, Englishnya pun ok, well...not such a bad choice. Cuma masalahnya dr awal dia ud bilang dengan jujur, "i'm looking for a partner, both for sex and relationship.." jreng..jreng..!!
Cm karena waktu itu gw ud kenapsuan (and gw pikir, let's give it a try) yah gw terusss aj kyk jalan tol. Sp sangka tnyata lanjut ampe detik ini...dan sekrang mulai deh gw gundah gulana mikirin hal yg sebenernya gk penting buat dipikirin ini.
Soalnya gini...gw pikir2 (mikir mulu!), soon he will ask to meet (i'm so sure about this, ibaratnya...ud kepegang niy, haha..) Later, if we meet...gw yakin dia gk akan bertahan lebih dari satu putaran, alias will become one date only. Coz gw inget bgt di profile'na dia prnh nulis "Don't want a femme type, i better date with girl then.." Nah, gw siy gk jelas yg dimaksud femme itu yg tipe feminin, ato yg sissy abies. Klo yg dimaksud itu yg pertama, jelas gw gk masuk itungan...coz gw kan tipe2 bot manis yg gk manly2 bgt. Istilahnya, jalan kudu digandeng, pulang kudu dianter, haha... Jd, klo tar kita ketemuan, trus dia ngeliat manner gw yg sweet gt (plus ditambah sweater gw yg imut itu, hahaha...) ud bs ditebak, dia bakal gelagapan trus minta pulang ato pura2 ada urusan.
Hmm, jd sebernya siy gk us dipikir terlalu dalem, i'll juz hav to do the countdown. Yah, artinya this one not gonna work then? Huhu, alamt mst hunting lg dunk..cape gw! Makanya, i think next time i need to really set my standart first. Kyk cowoq yg di Manjam itu tuw... Masalah jodoh datengnya cepet ato lambat, i think it's ok..as long as it's for the best.
Tapi ini pikiran waras gw yg lg berbicara. Gk tau deh hari2 ke-depan'na gmn. Kyk td siang aj, gw lg chat di Mirc (emang salah channel jg kali ye?), pas ketemu sama cowoq pri yg umurnya 19 taon. Yup, berondong..i know, baru lulus smu kykna coz pic'na ada yg msh pake seragam smu. Masalahnya baju seragamnya gk dikancing alias half top-less, hihi.. U know, for some reason...i always get horny klo ngeliat cowoq slim n kenceng pake seragam putih abu-abu. Menurut hasil penyelidikan, hal ini dikarenakan pengaruh dr BF pertama gw yg gw dapet pas SMU kelas 2. Nah, jadi bayang2 cowoq SMU bikin gw jd ke-inget sm mantan gw itu deh. Secara dia jg kan modelnya yg slim n kenceng gt...bodinya yg kenceng maksud gw. Gk tau deh barang'na, secara waktu itu gw ms SMU...lom kepikiran ampe ksana, hehe..
Nah, pas ngeliat pic tuw berondong (yg sebenernya ud gk pantes lg buat gw dr segi umur), otomatis horny lah gw. And u know, it's so easy to get laid with berondong...u juz have to ask, and that's what i've almost done (see!! I didn't do it...i still have brain u know, wkakakz) Yah, dgn berat hati i juz have to say bubye...tp kan sekali ini gw berhasil, kali lain? Gmn klo tergoda lagi, huhu...skrg aja gw lg menyesali nasib.
Yg kyk gini gw suka ks istilah, "Thing u don't want to do but u should do" I do it, no matter how much i hate it, how much i don't want it, bcoz i have to admit that there's a greater goodness beyond. Jd walau terkadang gw ngelakuin dgn hati gondok n setengah ikhlas, pada akhirnya hasilnya pun baik buat gw. So, maybe this is how's life work...u can't always stay on ur comfort zone. Sumtimes u need to make a decision, and it's not always about what u like or what u prefer, it is about sumthing goes beyond than that. Karena gak semua hal tampak di permukaan kan? Ada hal2 yg kita gk akan prnh tau, and i think that's why God gave us the intuition. An ability to talk through urself, and find the answer for almost everything.

Zumi Zumi Zola

Entah mau gw ks judul apa tulisan gw yg satu ini...biasanya ide bagus bakal muncul belakangan, jd sok atuh...let me juz type.
Hari ini gw bangun tidur horny bgt, hehe...padahal weekend ms jauh, bo! Secara hari ini baru hari Rabu... Dan ini semua gara2 si Cumi-Cumi alias Zumi Zola. Nah low??
Kmrn malem gw kepikiran tentang obrolan ala rumpi with my fren, yang katanya gk bisa tuh doyan sama cowoq pribumi. Bukannya sok rasial atow gmn, itu cm soal selera aj. And buat hal yang satu itu emang udah terbukti benarrr...! Gk peduli tuw cowoq mo seguanteng apaaa jg, tetep aj dia gk da feeling. Secara dia itu fitness di FF, and dia pake Platinum Member yang artinya dia bisa wara-wiri di seluruh pelosok FF. And tempat mangkal dia juga gk tanggung-tanggung, klo gk di Senci ya di GI. Naaah, kebayang dunk lelaki macam apa yang bakal ada dsana?
Tapi reaksi itu anak? BIASA AJ, gitu katanya. Bahkan TP TP sm sesama atao PT'na aj dia gk mau, wuiih...susyah deh klo ud soal selera. Nah, balik lagi ke gue, entah selera gue yang pasaran, ato emang gua yang napsuan. Yg jelas, menurut gw siy, klo cakep ya cakep...gk peduli ras'na...coz menurut gw tiap2 ras punya kelebihan n keunikan sendiri.
And then, otak gw yg liar ini langsung deh nyeleksi beberapa kandidat lelaki Melayu yang sekirany bs bikin gw ser-ser'an...and syukur2 bisa bikin temen gw ikut kesengsem. Dan tiba2 niy entah kenapa gw langsung kebayang si Zumi Zola. Apa karena gw ngidam Zumi-Zumi goreng tepung?? Hehe...



(Apa persamaan Cumi Goreng sm Zumi Zola? Jawab: sama2 bikin gw ngidam, khe khe khe...)

But hey, I'm Libra...so i easily fall in love. Emang siy, dia bs jadi tipe BF ideal gw. Mana cakep, manly but funny, tajir pula, and not too famoous alias gk pasaran, wokeeeh... But still, it's juz my imagination. Mending gw cari BF yang lebih down to earth, alias lebih mungkin untuk dicari.
Besides, misalnya aj nasib mempertemukan kami berdua (cieeee....>_<), and gw dengan segala daya upaya mengeluarkan "Susuk Pemikat Sukma" buat flirting ke dia, siapa yg bisa jamin klo dia itu binan?? Yg ada gw jadi mubazir, pliis d...
Jadi, ya sudahlah...imagination stays on the bed, while the reality stands beside you. Cuma gw tetep penasaran, klo misalnya one day gw jalan sm cowok yg model si Zumi Zola di dpn tmen gw, kira2 apa kata dia?
"Aiiih, koq bisa siy Dee...u jalan sm yg begituan??"
Kyk'na tetep d selera dia gk berubah, hehe...bagus lar, jd kita gk us saingan klo lg hang out bareng, hihihi...

Hoaaahm...I'm deadly sleepy *_*
Sumpe, nguantuk bgt hari ini...pdhl masih jam 10, b'arti gw baru 3 jam di kantor, and ms ada 5 jam lagi b'fore the office time is over. Hooahm...nguap lg deh gw, saking ngantuk'na (ato saking nganggur'na kalee y??) gw sempet ketiduran for over 15 minutes!! Lucky me, i have my own room, and nobody came in to my room, so gw bisa tidur dengan sukses dan damai, walau cm 15 menit, hehe...

(Kyk gini lar tampang gw...ketiduran dalam posisi duduk, hehe...)

Anyway, tujuan gw kali ini nulis blog bukan untuk membuat karangan naratif tentang betapa ngantuk'na gue. But this thing juz popped inside my head, "Where the hell can I find a guy who's actually nice and yet not craving for sex??" COba deh...

Demi untuk menjaga agar mata gw gk kelelep ditelen nguantuk, makanya tadi pagi2 buta gw ud ready buat OL di MIRC. Cm tiba2 aj, gue berasa malez gitu, coz bukan'na apa...so far yang gw temui, dapati, dan jumpai, di chanel MIRC itu yah ujung2nya cowoq2 yg pgn ML doang. Capaek2 chat panjang lebar, buntut2nya the final question will be "Are u T/B?"
Gk tau d, apa gw yg cupu ato emang gw gk gaul, tapi kayaknya kita butuh istilah baru di luar T?B deh... Soalnya, entah perasaan gw aj mungkin yg sensitif...tiap kali gw ngejawab "I'm bot" rasa2nya gw kayak mengumumkan ke seluruh dunia "hey, i'm bot...i'm ready to get fuck off, calling for all the top..." Hehehe...jijai euy...

So, gw jd miki...mugkin gw musti cr cara lain buat ngGap brg binan-binan lain di luar sana...dengan kata lain, finding the more elegance and healthier way to hook up with another boy.

If u notes, it's been July...so it's been 2 months since the last time i told myself to HANG ON. And yes, i did it...well done! So i've been back to hook up with a couple guys, yet there's no one feels right for me.

So, i was thinking about taking another step...maybe I should try to hang out in groups with another binan. This way, i'll find much ways to gettin' hook up by another man. Bisa jadi malah langsung kopi darat di tempat. Kan seru tuw, heboh...gk ribet pula, gk perlu cemas bakal ketemu sama orang yang berbeda penampakan dengan fotonya. Yeah, what a good idea...but still, there's a risk by doing it.

Hang out in groups, artinya gw akan lbh mudah keliatan, mudah dikenali, and ...apa kata dunia ntar??? Well, no guts no glory sey...but is it worth it? Lagipula, bayangan gue tentang my ideal relationship...itu jauh bgt dari hingar bingar. So, having a semi-discreet relationship, it's what suit for me most.

Terakhir gw ke GI, gw sempet ketemu lots of groups scattered around Blitz. Asal tau aj, kaki gw ud pengen nyosor aj nyamperin salah satu group itu. Secara ada bule disana, one of my favourite type...and he's looking at me constantly. Maybe he's wondering at the same time, wheter i'm aprroachable enough or not since i'm hang out with some of my gals...totally not binan, and totally not know about this. We're juz out for some great dinner and chit-chat, until i found my self...caugh in dilemma.

But once again, tetep akal sehat yang menang. So, instead of giving more attention...terpaksa lar gw cm bisa pura2 gk tau...hikz...hikz... Ilang deh calon BF gw yang baru, reseeh! Tapi kan gk mungkin gw tinggalin temen2 gw, gk mungkin pula gw keep on flirting di depan temen2 gue...yang ada mereka bingung, "Dee...u cacingan y? Kykna gelisah gt dari tadi"

Nah, gk salah dunk kalo sekarang ini...i'm still considering the option to getting out with some groups of binan?! Well, kandidatnya siy ud ada...all i have to do is make a call, then wussh...viva la vegas...we'll be ready for the next Saturday Night.
My hot spot location? I was thinking about Sarinah, GI, EX, and maybe we could ended up in F-Bar or Heaven. Yes, what a plan!!

Dijamin, dalam waktu seminggu inbox gw (baik yg di HP ataupun email) bakal penuh dengan calon-calon BF baru...and this time the selected one (Gileee, PD abis cui?!). Secara gw sendiri kna yg turun ke lapangan buat seleksi cowoq2 itu, hoho...form head to toe...semuanya gw cek langsung, right on the spot.

Duh, dilemaaa...so it's up to me then...to make a wise choice. Should I or shouldn't I? I've analyzed enough I think...both good and bad side. The result? Hmm...ya'll juz have to wait yo!

Hang ON...You're Almost There!!

Gk terasa ud ampir 1 bulan, since the last time i wrote on this blog...artinya, ud ampir sebulan jg project YearBook gw ud berjalan. And it also means that...almost sebulan pula gw gk hang out during week end...ud sebulan pula gw kerja overtime, sebulan merana, no cinemas, no great food, no chit-chat with frens, intinya ampir sebulan pula gw absen dr hingar bingar kota, hikz...
Let say, film t'akhir yg gw tonton di bioskop...X-Men:Wolverine, huhu...berasanya ud lama bgt!! Well, orang sabar pantantnya lebar, hopefully 2 weeks from now gw ud bs terbebas dr semua ini. Well, not totally free, coz on the next 2 weeks, deadline tgs kampus gw jg ud menunggu. But hey, if i can pass this one, i'll pass the rest!
Yg lebih parah dr semua keluahn no-no gw diatas adalah...no BF?! Ud ampir sebulan pula gw gk copy darat sm lelaki tampan di luar sana. O.M.G!! I know, bs karatan niy gw >_<
Gk da sms, gk da flirting call, pokoknya praktis sebulan ini basiiii bgt!! I dun even chat, nah low..
Tapi y sutra lah...buktinya life still go on, with or without all those stuff. Emang kurang berwarna siy...ibarat baju, jd kurang colorful...but the time will come for me to put more color in life. Sp tau, after i've done with this project...i would suddenly stumble in to a fine, gentle, funny man somewhere out there. Hehehe...ngarep yee...!! Tp sumpe, kemaren gw lg isenk2 browsing pic buat nyari ide tentang Year Book, and tiba-tiba gw dpt gambar ini:

Nah low...lg browsing gambar Year Book koq bs nyasar ke gambar kyk gini?? Nah ya, ketauan niy...tangan sama pikiran gk sejalan, hehehe...
Tp begitu gw ngeliat gambar ini, yg kepikir sama gw tuw:
"Wow, i'm definitely the boy with the dark hair..."
"and it would be very nice to have such a mate like the brown hair boy..."
"Waaah, bodinya slim tp kenceng...favorit gw bgt!! Gk nahaaan..."
And before i get too horny, yang pada akhirnya akan menyebabkan pekerjaan gw terbengkalai...akhirnya buru2 gw save aj tuw picture (on the different folder of course!! We can't mix pleasure with job, can we?) and then get back on track...nyari gambar yg innocent bwt YearBook lagi geetu...hehe
But, honestly...if one day i would have one kind of relationship, i hope it would be that kind of relationship, right juz like the picture.

Yah, mungkn gw cm laper mata doank...secara ud ampir sebulan gk ngeliat lanang. Malah yg lebih parahnya lg, minggu ini tiba2 gw jd kesengsem sm berondong-berondong! Gileee...turun derajad bgt gw! Tp sumpe, mata gw kayaknya butuh pengawas, klo gk tiap ngeliat seragam putih abu-abu gw ud mulai jelalatan. Giliiiingan padi...!
Pelampiasannya...apa boleh buat, apa lagi klo bukan video2 biru yg diperankan oleh twinks...secara mereka kan yg paling mendekati kriteria berondong, hikz... Tobaaaat, God bring me back the old ME please...this job is driving me crazy *_*

Bored over my desk...

Sumpee...hr ini, atau lbh tepatnya detik ini, gw lg nganggur abiez! Secara, bukan'na gw gk da kerjaan..bena pikiran gw malah ud berat bgt, considering the fact that i hace a DEADLINE on first week of June!! Artinya gw cm punya waktu 1 bulan lagi, to prepare my project! Sialnya lg, sampai hari ni, ms lom jelas percetakan mana yang menang tender. Semestinya, siang ini gw ud nyerahin berkas tender ke Purchasing, tp mood lg gk enak gini...hari Selasa pula, gw jd gk yakin. Sekarang ini siy, gw sibuk mengalihkan pikiran, dengan ber-internet ria (kebetulan tadi pagi kable LAN yg selama ini nganggur ud ditarik ke server, jd koneksi 24 jam sudah tersambung...finally!!) dan membaca buku mengerikan tentang virus Ebola. What an exclusive way to kill the time!!

So, after boring browsing sana-sini, tangan dan pikiran ini mulai tergoda untuk buka situs yang esek-esek...hmm, padahal janjinya kan: "there will be no more xxx, except for the weekend..." Sedangkan hari ini baru hari Selasa?? Duh, lemah banget pertahanan gw...gara-gara ini niy..


Yo wizz laar, situs sudah terlanjur dibuka, buku juga sudah terlanjut dibaca....now what's left is the gloomy feeling, makanya gw kepikiran buat nulis di blog lagi...
Pada dasaranya, seems like i have to put more control of my self...dalam arti, i have to stop being worried!! Okay, this is a big project for me, add the deadline...then it would successfuly blow my mind off... TAPI, cemas dan takut kan gk akan menyelesaikan masalah. Membuang2 waktu dengan browsing gk jelas dan buka situs bokep juga gk akan menyelesaikan masalah (walaupun menyenangkan...hehe). Yang bisa menyelesaikan masalah itu...if you go make an action!

First action is about how to make yourself calm... Believe that this project would turn up succesfull. Dengan begitu, i can get my clear mind stay on my head.
After i got my clear mind back, it's time to put a real action! Which is...secure your way. Artinya gw harus berjuang mendapatkan tender yang terbaik. So far, gw ud dapat sekutu yang wokeh!! Tinggal bagaimana caranya supaya sekutu itu bisa benar2 bersekutu lewat jalur tender. Well, ini bukan KKN...but it's a politic! In order to survive, gw harus secure my path first...so, if there's a way with a less obstacles, why dun't grab it??!

Third action, is to prepare the design...yes, i'm talking about grabbing a piece of paper (wait...maybe a bunch of papers!!), a pencil, and an eraser...then start draw!! Let your hand to the magic...dengan begitu gw ud punya konsep yang ready to go. Dalam minggu2 ini jg kyknya gw harus meeting sama si sekutu, spy gw bs dapet konsep yg jelas about what i should prepare.

Fourth action...setting schedule (ini tulisan'na bener gk siy?), yes, i;m talking about maintain your performances ain college! Haiya, yg satu ini gk boleh lupa kan..esp. minggu ini ada 1 lagi UTS yang harus dikerjakan dengan baik! Semangaaat...!!

Tak disangka, tiba2 datang kerjaan dari divisi PR. Bukan kerjaan sebenernya, coz judulnya gw hanya membantu. But hey...helping people, i might get some a happy feeling after all. Lagian ini jg kerjaan guampang, cm ngedit letter doank... Tp yg penting, after i'm done with this...i was thinking about sending my "berkas tender" to purchasing. Of course, gw mst nunggu berkas tender terakhir yang katanya bakal di-fax jam 1 nanti...reseee!!

Lunch @ Cardamon...then i think

Kadang klo ud ktmu cogan itu suka jd dilema looh...
Dilemma, whether I should act or juz skip...but sumtimes, some guys are too hard to resist, and sometimes it's even harder to deal with yourself, jd kadang...we do things based on our feeling.
Dan yang terjadi kemudian, dengan nekad'na gw samperin aj tuw waiter Cardamon,
"Mas, blh tau gk umurnya brp?"
"Saya? 24..."
(Ok...sesuai standar gw lar, not too toung not too old)
"Ow, ehm..blh minta nmr telp'na gk?"
(Bodo deh! Paling banter jg dia nolak ngasi nomornya...)
"Oh, boleh..."
(Hah? Gk salah denger? Gampang bgt? Tangan gw ud sibuk ngeluarin HP)
"Berapa, Mas"
(Sumpeh...lg ngapain gw?? Aduh, temen2 gw pst lg ketwa-ketiwi di meja seberang...DAMN!!)
"0219889xxxx, nama saya Erxxx..."
(Koq dia gk nanya siy bwt apaan? Gk curiga gt? Ato jangan-jangan dia tau...?!)
"Ow, ok...makasih ya, Mas!"
(Yeah, it's done! Hohoho...)

Emang siy, gk setiap kali gw ketemu cogan trus gw mintain nomor telp'na... Liat2 sikon lar, feedback dr dia gmn?? Klo emang ada sinyal2 khusus, msk iya gk gw tangkep? haha...
But to be honest...buat yg satu ini gw malah bingung. Okay, i get his number, tp buat apa? I mean, i can't expect anything from him, right? What kind of relationship that I can expect?
Biasa klo tukeran nomor, yang ada gw yg nunggu di-telp. Istilahnya, setelah gw usai menebar pesona, mereka yang terjerat tidak akan lari kemana, haha...
Najiz, kesannya gw kayak penyihir aja!!

Ya gitu d, kyknya siy itu cm dorongan nafsu sesaat aj... Yah, itung2 ngetes, susuk pemikat gw masih ampuh gk, haha.. Cm kadang2 gw emang suka dilema. Trade number, mgkn kesannya simple...but do we really have to? Mksdnya, gk da cara yg lbh elegan gt? But if we do nothing, kayaknya koq sayang bgt... It's hard to find the right man, u know?

Misalnya aj, last weekend...gw pernah msk sendirian (ya eyalah, masa rame2??) di toilet EX, klo gk salah ud jam 9 PM waktu itu, alhasil toilet di lantai 3 itu emang sepi bgt, cm ada 2 orang. Yang satu Om2 gt denk, ud gk masuk itungan d... Yg satu lagi, cowoq oriental kurus tinggi...yang satu ini masuk itungan bgt!! Nah, berhubung gw mo re-touch (secara ud lewat 2 jam, like i said...muka gw yang berminyak ini emang bikin repot!) and rapihin style rambut, jadinya gw spent time cukup lama di WC (Uda biasaaaa, langganan kalee...kata temen-temen gw). Cukup lama, buat nunggu si Om2 keluar, and tinggal tuw cowoq yg lg rapih2 baju n celana (pipis'nya dashyat bgt y?) and me di depan kaca.
Yah, buat Ditto namanya klo matanya gk terlatih. Sekali lirik jg gw tau dia lg liatin gw. Tambah nervous lah gw, berlama-lama di depan kaca. Nah, klo ud kyk gt...dipikir-pikir, "I do have all the time and chance to hook up with the guy" Right? But do i have too?

In my wildest imagination, bisa aj sey gw bilang,
"Ehm...sori...ada yang aneh y? Kayaknya ngeliatin gw mulu?"
(Anjrit, PD bgt!!) Trus kita kenalan denk...
"Rapihin bajunya lama bgt gk slesai-selesai...gw bantuin de, sekalian rapihin celananya"
(Maksudnya biar bs megang-megang body'na...kali aj kepegang G-SPot'na...hehe...)
Trus sambil narik kaosnya ke atas, buat nge-cek perutnya rata ato gk, gw berbisik di telinga si cowoq, "Do you wanna be on top?"

Hahaha...gilingan padi!! Dikit lagi niy cerita ud kyk stensilan yg di situs 17tahun.com aj! Haha..
Yah, namanya jg wildest imagination. Faktanya kan gk kyk gt. Mungkin aj BISA kejadian, klo gw ikutin skenario di atas, tapi kenyataannya gw malah cm diem2an aj. Sampe gw keluar, tuw cowoq baru ikut keluar. Tapi begitu gw ngelewatin pintu WC, detik itu juga gw ud bersumpah, "God, help me to get through this..." and sambil buang nafas, gw celingak-celinguk nyari temen2 gw. Yah, mungkin ini pertanda gw kudu buru2 cari BF, biar mata dan hati jg gk jelalatan, hehe...

Lunch @ Cardamon

Wuii...the fact that i liked the most, when i hang out around the prestigious Mall is that...there's a plenty of cute guys of there!! Hohoho...
Dalam hal ini, i speak generally...coz gk cm visitornya, but the staff, let's say...for example: the security guy, the waiters, even the OB...sumtimes they're cute enough. Yah, cukuplah buat jd teman fantasi liar di malam hari, hoho...^^
Jangan salahkan daku kalau ternyata waiter di Cardamaon bs bikin gw kepincut, haha... Mungkin sesuai dengan motto'na..."all u can eat" maybe it's include the waiter, haha...
Sumpe, tadinya gw gk punya niat apa2...juz want to have a fine lunch with my frens. Tapi siapa sangka klo ternyata meja kita bakal kedapetan waiter tampan? Yah, gk setampan model2 di Fashion TV siy, secara dia produk lokal gt. But he's quite tall...and he's got the perfect skin!
Tau drmn, mang gw bawa2 mikroskop? Hehe...gk laar, cm kebetulan kita duduk di seat yg sofa di pojokan, right in front of the big window yang view'na ke arah kota. So, berhubung kita makan di siang hari...otomatis cahaya'na kan kenceng bgt tuw. Nah, otomatis muka waiter itu kan kesorot langsung, and yes...kulitnya asli perfect bgt, gk da noda, jerawat, ato bekas luka, gk berminyak pula kyk muka gw yang tiap 2 jam sekali mst di-lap..hikz ~_~
Yg bikin gw kesengsem?? Hmm...i dun know. Maybe awalnya gw cm simpati, secara temen2 gw yg makannya kyk kuli itu (oops, sorrey guyz..hehe) ribet bgt makanya. Jd tuw waiter sukses juga bolak-balik service meja kita.
Makanya pas free flow kita ud pd abiz, and tu waiter dateng bwt nawarin refill..dgn manisnya gw blg "gk usah, makasih..." mksdnya biar dia gk us repot bolak balik ngambil refill. Toh gw bs nebeng dari gelas laen, hehe...
Eh, gk taunya tuw waiter malah blg, "Ehm, mungkin mau coba es-krimnya? Kalo mau bisa saya ambilkan..." Aiih, so sweet...ada cogan yg nawarin es-krim, haha...
Alhasil, waktu tmn2 gw pd balik dari perburuan makanan di meja buffe, n mereka ngeliat gw lg megang2 es-krim, bertanya-tanya'lah mereka, "Dee, dapet drmn tuw?"
"What? Oh, ini...biasa lar, td waiternya lg bagi2 bagi es-krim buat tamu-tamu yang maniz" Wkakaks...